January 30th, 2005
Last night Golem played at Barbes (my neighborhood Parisian club - intimate, with red walls, a bar in the front and a curtained-off performance space in the back). I am having trouble putting into words how great it was–how lucky I felt to be making music that particular night, with these particular bandmates, to that particular audience.
Yes, it was incredibly crowded, and people actually had to leave because they couldn’t fit in the door (!). Yes, body heat brought the room to sauna-level heat which does funny things to your brain. But there was a special energy between the crowd and the band that pushed us to play more passionately, from a deeper place inside ourselves, and it was a transcendent experience.
It also happened that I had friends from a lot of different worlds there - the park slope chevre, old friends from amherst, my former captains from the schooners down at south street seaport…some of whom I hadn’t seen in six years! So here were all these old friends in one room. And at the same time my Golem bandmates who I get to see regularly in so many circumstances: clubs, weddings, bar mitzvahs, planes, cars, subways, JCC’s, hotels, bars, living rooms, cafes. When we are onstage with a great audience like that, all the hours spent practicing, travelling and planning together are crystallized into two extremely beautiful hours–extremely beautiful for me, that is–and then the show is over and we have to go back to talking with words instead of with music.
This is all to say… thank you to everyone who braved the crowds & fire hazards to make last night a most amazing evening. May there be many more!!!

